All for love

-long distance-

2009-06-21T13:44:00.004+04:00

with you is where I'd rather be

but we're stuck were we are

it's so hard, were so far

I wish that you where here with me

but we're stuck were we are

it's so hard, were so far

This long distance is killing me

sniff*sniff

- back to square -

2009-06-16T15:17:00.002+04:00

I am pissed off. No, make that, I am fucking angry (I don’t swear so this is really something deep)

If you really know me well, you would also be aware that I am a man-hater before. Actually, if you are someone I’ve encountered, you would already know how deep my hatred of men is. I’d usually be online on IM and YM and my status would scream “All Men Are Equal…They Are All Jerks”. I don’t have any qualms saying to my guy friends’ face that I think their brains are located between their thighs especially whenever they tell me that their current flames have broken up with them because they were caught cheating.

I am. With all the mushy-ness and things like that that you can find here, I actually hate men. There were times in my life when I was able to forget about that hatred. There were men I came to know who gave me a reason to see men in a different light.
Unfortunately, there were also men who keeps pulling me back to square one - men who cheat, men who go for girls with big boobs and nothing between their ears, men who simply go for dumb bimbos, men who think of women as sex objects, men who think about nothing else but sex.
In the society that we live in, women are nothing but second-rate citizens (disagree with me and your comment might just get deleted) for if women are treated as an equal to men, then maybe we would also have women commenting about how long Boy A’s schlong is or how good Boy B is in bed. There are women who do that, but they are very few. And these few women would usually cause eyebrows to be raised. They would be seen as pok-pok, mlandi, pakawala. Never mind if in real life they are respectable people (before you go moralistic on me, think about this - just because someone is not as pure as you want them to be doesn’t mean that they are less of a person). No eyebrows would be raised if, say, a guy would talk about how good Girl A is in bed or how tight someone’s pussy is (sorry for the term). People would just laugh it off.

Just a while ago, I came across a site giving a download link for the 3rd installment of the HK-Maricar video. All these weeks, we haven’t really heard from Maricar. For me, that was the best way to go about the situation. Siya ang talo, no matter what. Whether she speaks out or not, people would say, e bakit ka nakipag-sex? Bakit ka nagpa-video? Better not speak at all and let the issue die a natural death…kaya lang may mga sinto-sinto na nagpost pa talaga ng link. Kaya dumadami ang rape victims sa mundo e.

Naaawa ako kay Maricar (sorry, but I don’t feel any pity for KH). People were saying na pwede syang maging porn star, na magaling sya sa kama. How would you feel if you overhear people saying that about your wife, about your sister, about your daughter, about your mother? Kung gusto mong manood, fine manood ka. Pero yung mag-comment pa ng ganoon? Hinde na tama yun. You don’t even know what Maricar is in real life. If pakawala sya, if pokpok sya, if malandi sya, then she would have been playing her body everywhere, she would be doing overly sexy movies. She would have been involved with so many guys. Her only mistake is trusting a voyeur.
At dahil dyan sa lecheng trust na yan kaya ako galit sa mga lalake except kay Baby ko. I know that there are guys out there who are the antitheses of Hayden Kho and those maniac guys who see Maricar as a nagpapakipot lang pero pokpok.

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Angel♥

- thursday night, girl's night -

2009-06-13T12:39:00.002+04:00

was just chillin with my babe on ym, then my cousin just sid can we go out tonite?! i was like liking the idea haha,. but seriously wanna chat my man, but he agreed too cuz its not everyday and night wud be boring without me LMAO...then i put on my clothes on while my babe's tellin me to put this put that,. lol... he just wanna brings out the best in me as he always says.. he told me what make up to put, what shoes to match with my clothes,.good thing i got him he understand me so well unlike others,. i really appreciate him somuch.. very persistent to stay up late with me cuz of our time difference.damn,.. time will tell time will come i know.. *prays so hard* LOL..

- 25th birthday -

2009-06-03T09:38:00.002+04:00

whew, i was tipsy the whole night.. but i can say nice bday i had experienced with my cousins, ana, and my aunt who let me drink B52 and tequila... like OMG i cant believe im drinkin that, well its kinda cool and love the B52..:P all through the night dancin and lauhing, reached home at 02:30 AM and guess what? ... i didnt go to work..LoL

- Happy Birthday To Me -

2009-06-02T09:44:00.003+04:00

A lady just turned 25,.. I've learned something from life when I reach my twentys, learned how to control myself, learned to believe to myself as I cannot depend on anyone, learned that Life is not that easy to do mistakes.. We only live once and we never know when the almighty will take us. scary but true.. life is a matter of choice to live with it to the fullest.

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Angel♥

- Why Do I Love You? -

2009-05-30T11:54:00.001+04:00

Because you are and always have been my dream baby..

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Angel♥

- missin my baby -

2009-05-24T16:09:00.001+04:00

damn 2 days yer gone and It's like a year,. im really missin you baby.. :((

cant last a day without talking to you.. im just here hanging for you..

I love you so much .. muuuah!!

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Angel♥

- Careless Whisper -

2009-05-23T15:05:00.001+04:00

whoah cant beleive I'll get hooked with that video..lol.. :P I mean for the whole day at work I was in to that alleged sex scandal of Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho.. which is said to be Katrina's grievance.. anyway I agree with those people who are against Hayden, its the reputation of the girl and it's a private moment so I think its better if he just kept that video alone and not to flaunt it well yeah honestly he's good but the way I see it its so below the belt.. kinda sucks to think that a licensed doctor will do such a thing.. poory girls were victimed by him.. I must admit if it ever happened to me well I might just stay in my room and lock up.. its a matter of dignity and those girls had just lost them and its sad.. anyways Hayden, heard of KARMA thing?! thats it for now.. so I'm never gonna dance again the way I dance with you.. LMFAO, :))

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Angel♥

- TRIPIN -

2009-05-16T14:34:00.000+04:00

ןǝƃuɐ

˙˙˙ʎqɐq noʎ ɥʇıʍ ǝʌoןuı uɐɯp os ɯ,ı˙˙˙

- WEAK -

2009-05-16T14:10:00.001+04:00

I'm so damn sleepy today.. can't sleep last night thinkin of my babe, woke up at 04:00 am, gosh I'm so sleepy huhuhu:((

just waiting for my hubby to get on but i guess his busy too..

i feel so weak today without my babe online.. i miss him so much...sigh...

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Angel♥

- Survey... Survery -

2009-05-16T11:41:00.000+04:00

1.) Do you kiss & Tell? -nah..
2.)What's worse: One night stand or a Bad relationsip? -Bad relationship.. one night stand is just for one night..
3.)Is it easier for you to forget or forgive? -forgive.. not that easy to forget we all know that..
4.)All expenses paid vacation to where? - HAWAII..lol
5.)On the way to the electric chair, what's your last meal? - WTF! will u still have the appetite knowin yer gonna die in a few minutes?! lol..
6.)Is flirting cheating? - i guess it depends..;)
7.)If someone called you a Bitch would you get offended? - nah who cares I'm bitchier that them..lol
8.)Who was the last person you wrote a letter? - My Hubby..
9.)Single or ready to settle down? - not single, not yet ready to settle down but if he'll ask me then Hell YEAh I DO!!! lmao..
10.)Do you believe in Marriage? - Hell Yeah!
11.)Would you consider your self adventurous? - for u to find out (wink)..
12.)Who's most important in your life? - mom, my hubby..
13.)Who makes you smile? - my hubby..as always.:)
14.)Where do you wanna get married? - anywhere with my Baby...:)
15.)Afraid of: Losing the people you love or being old? - ofcourse losing the people i love duh...
16.)Can you twist your tongue? - haha yeah :)
17.)Ever loved someone who doesnt love you back? - well yeah ..:(
18.)Where do you want to make out? - whoah!! ok ok anywhere with my babe..lol.. ;)
19.)In relationship are you giver or taker? - both..
20.)Would you risk your life for someone you love? - i would love to share my life but if risking is the thing well yeah I can ..:)

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Angel♥

- 5 steps in reaching your goal -

2009-05-14T12:06:00.001+04:00

Damn I've seen this movie before but I never really figured out that it was a nice movie.. until I saw again last night and it really fascinate me esp with the steps in reaching your goals..

- Set your goal

- Start Today

- There are no short-cuts

- Find an inspiration

- Be happy

I confesed this past few days I was trying to figure out what I really want to be cuz I aint growing younger I mean I need to do something really worth it before its too late.. It's now or never so I guess I really need to follow that step..

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Angel♥

- INLOVE -

2009-05-13T15:38:00.000+04:00

♥INLOVE MODE♥

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Angel♥

- Love, always uttered word -

2009-05-13T13:37:00.001+04:00

definitions of most abused word: LOVE

- is always bestowed as a gift-freely,willingly & without expectations, We dont love to be loved,we love to love.

-is splendid triggering of human vitality the supreme activity which nature affords anyone for going out of himself toward someone else.

-does not dominate, it cultivate.

-is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.

so many definitions but only one meaning..LOVE, is everything..

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Angel♥

- Thank God I Found You -

2009-05-13T08:27:00.002+04:00

Well, I know this song was ages ago but i'm currently listenin to it and I liked the lyrics.. here it is...

I would give up everything

Before I'd seperate myself from you

After so much suffering

I finally found unvarnished truth

I was all by myself for the longest time

So cold inside

And the hurt from the heartache would not subside

I felt like dying

Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you

I was lost without you

My every wish and every dream

Somehow became reality

When you brought the sunlight

Completed my whole life

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude

'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you

I will give you everything

Theres nothing in this world I wouldn't do

To ensure your happiness

I'll cherish every part of you

'Cause without you beside me I can't survive

Dont wanna try

If you keeping me warm each and every night

I'll be alright

'Cause I need you in my life

See I was so desolate before you came to me

Looking back

I guess it shows that we were destined

To shine over the rain to appreciate

The gift of what we have

And I'd go through it all over again

To be able to feel

This way

Thank God I found you,. I'm overwhelmed with gratitude

My Baby i'm so thankful I found you..

whew kinda long huh,. anyways I guess you all know this is for My Hubby... Love you baby!

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Angel♥

- Gemini's Eyes -

2009-05-12T14:02:00.001+04:00

"This eyes of mine dont lie cause it's all yours,
This eyes of mine is where everyone can see the joy you brought into my life,
This eyes of mine we're made to look at you,
This eyes of mine are yours endlessly"
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Angel♥

- Truth and Life Experience Deal -

2009-05-12T13:59:00.002+04:00

I have learned so many things mainly from my experiences that I have gone through, from my friends, my family and from my baby but sometimes there are things that you just can’t learn unless you learn them yourself. So I figure.I do know that “sometimes even when you don’t want to hear the truth, it’s usually because you’re blinded by your own arrogance and the fear of hearing that truth.” So when I think of it like that I figure “that in those times its best to lose that arrogance you have and allow that truth a way in before you do anything foolish and reckless that you might have been able to avoid to begin with.”But life isn’t all about just allowing yourself to HEAR THE TRUTH or trying to make a living, it’s also about finding yourself through all the mistakes and things you do. I mean to be honest, “Life’s too short to waste time” So I figure… “Make use of that time trying to figure out who you are rather then wasting time trying to be someone that you are not.” Doing this you will see that life is a bit easier and it seems to make more sense then before, right?As a last note, life does present you with problems. Sometimes you may know what to or a solution to fix that problem. This is a good thing at times but at other times when a friend can’t help you may often find yourself confused as to what to do. Well to be honest, I find that “when you are presented with a problem and are confused as to how to solve that problem its best in those times to do nothing at all.”Well for now that’s all I can say to this as my thoughts have come to a halt at the moment. Till next time.

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Angel♥

- I'm hangin here for you -

2009-05-12T13:57:00.002+04:00

I dont know what God's plan for us..I even dont know whats more store for us, but there's one thing for sure I'll just be here waiting for you, you told me to hang in here for you and u told me not to go anywhere cuz you gonna come to me.. and I trust you wen you said it..It's just a good feeling knowing your'e so sincere...
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Angel♥

- I aint perfect -

2009-05-12T13:11:00.002+04:00

“Don’t look for perfection in me. I want to acknowledge my own imperfection, I want to understand that that is part of the endlessness of my growth. It’s absolutely useless at this stage in your life, with all of the shit piled up in your closet, to walk around and try to kid yourself about your perfection. Out of the raw material you break downyou grow and absorb the energy. You work yourself from inside out, tearing out,destroying, and finding a sense of nothingness. That nothingness allows God tocome in. But this somethingness— ego and prejudices and limitations— is your rawmaterial. If you process and refine it all, you can open consciously. Otherwise,you will never come to anything that represents yourself…The only thing that can create a oneness inside you is the ability to see more of yourself as youwork everyday to open deeper and say, fine, ‘I’m short tempered,’ or ‘Fine, I’m aggressive,’ or, ‘Fine, I love to make money,’ or, ‘I have no feeling foranybody else.’ Once you recognize you’re all of these things, you’ll finally beable to take a breath and allow these things to open.”
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Angel♥

- 12 of April 2009 -

2009-05-12T13:07:00.001+04:00

I'm inlove since the day I've met him

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Angel♥